I’ve been feeling a lot of feelings recently and I’m not sure what to do with them. So I did what any bored ‘millennial’ would do, I started a blog. I really hate myself for it because it’s so lame and everyone is doing it, trying to make a ‘quick and easy buck’ but a couple of things have happened to me recently which has made me want to get my thoughts out into a public space. (Mainly my step mum telling me I should ‘write a blog’).

The reason she told me I should start a blog is because recently I wrote a letter to my younger sister before she was moving up to secondary school detailing my experience of high school. Reassuring her that things will be ok, girls can be really mean and boys aren’t as important as it feels like they are. And then I found out someone has written a book about that which is now a number 1 best seller….

As I said, I have been feeling a lot of feelings recently, crying in the shower, feeling sorry for myself, eating more than my weight in chocolate and drinking far too much, you know, the usual. I moved to Scotland in the new year, away from my friends and family and regular hang out spots, away from everything I knew. And I’m sad. And I’m lonely.

I didn’t think it would be as hard as it has been, I thought I’d make friends easily and my new job would be great and I’d have a beautiful flat that I could decorate like all the ones I see on instagram, and I’d be out and about exploring the beautiful surrounding countryside.

Obviously it hasn’t turned out all sunshine and rainbows. It hasn’t been terrible, it just hasn’t been the fresh start I was hoping it would be.

I plan on documenting my experiences and feelings in the hope that someone might read them and decide I should become rich and famous. (Just kidding). (But not really).

I just needed somewhere to vent and my hand was aching from writing in my diary……